For $100, the first however many users (I hear it is sold out) could buy a pass that would allow them to eat unending pasta at Olive Garden for 13 weeks. But they cannot transfer it to any random person, including their family members. The pass can only be redeemed by the person to whom it is issued, and they may have to show photo ID.

It has been my experience that the Olive Garden is a place of racial and social class harmony. People eat in peace, not yelling or screaming. No one destroys property. No one fights. No one swears at servers. I doubt that everyone tips as well as my mom and I do, but no one defecates on their booth either.

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The Olive Garden is paradise for the not-rich who still want a nice, sit-down meal to share with family or friends. The food is really pretty good, the servers are nice, and the atmosphere is kitchy but cute. I may have my birthday lunch at the Olive Garden.

People of different classes, different races, different religions and nations of origin, all agree to show ID and basically behave in order to get a decent pasta dinner, maybe with an appetizer of soup or salad and those delicious breadsticks. I mean, who wouldn’t behave properly for that?

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It is getting harder and harder to counter the argument that Democrats want open borders and no voter ID because they want illegal immigrants to vote. I’ve always doubted that… I think it has to be more complicated, with the downstream effects of cheap labor being the main force at play. But you have to wonder when they so stringently oppose any attempt to prove that those who vote are in fact the people who are registered and eligible to vote.

Honestly, this deal is amazing. Unlimited pasta, breadsticks, soup and salad. Obviously, EBT should cover this pass! Feed people for thirteen weeks for $100! The pasta, soup and salad at the Olive Garden are much healthier than the free school lunches and breakfasts that taxpayers provide every day to all the students in the School District of Philadelphia.

I have a feeling that even Marie Antionette would be in favor of this.

Let them eat pasta.

I saw this on Substack. I’m pretty sure someone made it with AI because human intelligence does not seem able to put together such a sign as of yet.

Some would think it’s right wing because it implicitly makes fun of those “In this house we believe…” that everyone is wonderful except Jews and white men signs that dot every yard of a property owned by a white person in neighborhoods like mine. But it’s actually quite self-consciously centrist, I think. Against both fascism and socialism. In favor of vaccines and markets. No wild and crazy propositions here… unless you are on the far Left and think the mythical rich owe you a living and Hamas is your army of heroes.

I wonder if this sign could be a platform that could win. Just basic old common sense, it seems.

What do you think?

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It was a busy week and this is my only day off. I’ve been running around getting things done. Got to yoga class at least. Finally seeing a friend I used to see once a week and haven’t seen in maybe three. Loviefluffy got tons of petting.

The yoga studio is still on its wacko pro-Pali thing. I expect nothing else from a place that markets its yoga teacher training as decolonization workshops. Almost everyone there identifies as some kind of queer and has unnatural color hair, multiple piercings and tattoos. Exactly the people who would be thrown off roofs by Hamas.

I stopped in the bathroom at a local restaurant on my way home. Sure enough, the graffiti hasn’t improved.

I actually know Amber Wren, and I think her sticker is accidentally near the offensive graffiti, so don’t blame her.

One could develop a lot of theories about why the inhabitants of West Philly, who have the freedom to fly their freak flag high, build their own community, enforce their moral viewpoint on everyone else, and yell harassment at those they even perceive as disagreeing, hate Israel so much. These people are mostly white, to the extent their color is discernible under their tattoos. They seem to work in a revolving succession of bartending, waiting tables, barista and music industry jobs. What did Israel ever do to them? As we all know, it’s the only country in the Middle East where they would be welcomed. The gay cruise debacle proved that yet again. If you haven’t read Eve’s article about that, you should.

Israeli policy will not be changed by what’s written on the bathroom walls of a burrito shop in West Philly, of that I am pretty sure. Or what “Yogis for Palestine” is on about on any given day.

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Spending most of my time now among highly functional, polite and dare I say normal people, I feel a kind of fatigue when I am again confronted with the bizarre characters in my neighborhood. I’m so used to it that I’ve stopped being used to it.

Fortunately everyone probably assumes that I’m a good liberal woman, as I am of that age when single white women tend to be, and it doesn’t occur to anyone that someone in this neighborhood might not agree with them. I keep my head down, especially in downward facing dog at the studio. I chat with the owner about her wife and their Yorkiepoo, not politics. I like to build bridges and do bridge pose.

But I do long for a different environment.

Still, one should be grateful for what one has. I got to go for walks the last three days as we start later on Friday and Saturday and I had today off. It hasn’t been as hot. Last time I checked my car had not been crushed by a tree.

Another day in Bizarre West Philly. (yes, this sign is real.)

I commented (I try to stay out of it but sometimes my annoyance wins) that these are just plain taking responsibility for oneself.

He put the laughing emoji next to my comment and wrote:

It can both but the pay scale rarely advances but mostly everything mentioned on this list has ridiculously so I’m not typically down for blaming those who have less over those who have in ridiculous abundance! It’s called capitalism for a reason.

The comment is a little garbled but people write FB comments on their phones so no criticism of that.

I fail to see how pointing out obvious ways that people can save money is blaming those who have less over those who have… anything. Is it somehow a human right to order takeout, eat out, have a short commute to work or get out of debt without cutting spending?

And I don’t quite get how these make you poor more quietly. Seems more likely that doing these things would get you out of poverty.

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Perhaps because I don’t feel particularly sorry for myself, I have trouble feeling sorry for people who exercise incredibly bad judgement and then feel like government should get them out of the situation. I’ve made some poor decisions in my life time, many of them tiny everyday decisions that add up rather than big one-time decisions (though attempting to get an unfunded PhD program was the A#1 stupidest choice ever.)

I understand that a tremendous amount of social capital and help from friends is what has saved me from seriously bad situations more than once. But what really has turned the tide is simple, old fashioned hard work. It is, in fact, hard to work very long days, have an arduous commute, find any time to exercise, and avoid eating tons of Swedish Fish,

but I don’t blame the government or the mythical rich for these problems. They are my problems, and no one else is going to solve them. In fact, I bet Mamdani’s next promise will be free gummy candies for all! So the socialists would be more likely to contribute to my profligacy than to assist me in living better.

People want stuff for free. A life of ease is now in fashion. Hard work is no longer culturally supported, at least not in West Philadelphia, home of the “poor” who buy a $5 coffee every morning.

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I’m heading back to the place where hard work is expected, whining is not accepted, and people get on with it.

Jennifer stood up against abuse in gymnastics, against unnecessary and damaging COVID school closures, and now against the trans delusion insanity.

When one simply says that if you don’t affirm that an obvious man who is swinging his dick is a woman because he says so, you crossed a line. We aren’t doing this. Normal people aren’t going to play anymore.

I was at a coffee shop and got into a conversation with a barista who claimed that his human rights would be violated by the Trump administration.

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No one is jailing men who want to dress like women or women who want to dress like men. Some people find it annoying. Some people really don’t care. As someone who sees most of the people in their neighborhood dressed as unambiguous gender cosplay, I find it just gets old. Insipid. It’s boring. A fat man in a dress. Great.

Let people do their own weird identity as long as it doesn’t bother anyone else. Men can’t come into women’s spaces without us calling them out. Women actually do not want men waving their dicks at us in restrooms and locker rooms and showers.

I noticed that the man I met at the coffee shop who insisted that his name was Evile and he was a woman was quite ruffled when I mentioned that my closest friend had made a complete surgical transition to female in her sixties.

Putting your penis where your mouth is can be threatening to those who just want to cosplay at being female. If you want to sacrifice nothing while asking everyone around you to pretend you’re a woman, then you’re not going to be so excited about someone who sacrificed their male privilege and made themselves vulnerable to rape and other forms of assault are a threat.

Very few people are falling for the fake oppression anymore.

I’m glad Jennifer Sey is speaking out.

I plan to support her. Hope she runs for office.

I taught the word “oversight” last week. It has two meanings: oversight as in supervision, making sure the rules are enforced, and oversight as in an unintentional error, such as forgetting your mother’s birthday.

The message is not ambiguous. Mandami and his friends are hellbent on erasing America. Sometimes when people tell you who they are, you should believe them.

Quite a few of the people I’ve known over the years like this fellow, jump to his defense, and aren’t all that concerned - or actively support - his antisemitic views. Maybe if you aren’t Jewish, or if you are a Jew who does not attend synagogue, you aren’t so worried about his okayness with “protests” at synagogues. Maybe if you aren’t a victim of violent crime you are not so worried about his Ramadan prayers with inmates at Riker’s Island. Maybe if you don’t remember 9/11, you aren’t too concerned about his support of terrorists.

Where does this end? Those who chant “Death to America” might mean something along the lines of: “Death to America.”

I’m happy to see some of my New York friends stepping up to be active in the movement against the mayor. The regular Democrats let this happen, and now they will have to fix it. It’s unlikely that a Republican can win in NYC.

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Meanwhile, for the rest of us?

We need to stop quietly nodding along when leftists say that all people with brown skin are good and all people with white or lighter brown skin are bad. We have to stop accepting the oppressor/oppressed narrative, even socially, before it’s too late.

If you wonder what the far Left thinks should happen to those they have labeled as “oppressors,” look no further than those celebrating the October 7 massacre on October 8, before the IDF had done a single thing. They want you raped, your children burned, and your home destroyed, same as happened to Israelis. The peacenik Israelis on kibbutzim who used to drive Palestinians to Israeli hospitals for medical care - all the while, the Palestinians were collecting intelligence for the massacre.

This is not an accident. While liberals continue to rant about orange man bad and wring their hands over the poor illegal immigrants, actual Islamist radicals have come to power in one of the most important cities in the Western world.

As one of my favorite substacks is titled: “Tell me how this ends.”

Not well.

It’s not an oversight. It’s a plan.

Let’s stop it before it’s too late.

This is a spot on the street where I often park my car.

Fortunately, today I left for work at 11:05 and missed the storm that hit Philly. The drive home was scary: tons of traffic lights out. My colleague who rides with me did a great job of helping me navigate some frightening intersections. There were so many giant trees down all over the city. Large portions of town look to be out of power. The fire department is out, and people are inspecting the property.

Miraculously, our house is okay and the power is on. I was so eager to get to Loviefluffy and make sure she was safe. She is fine - just ate her wet food supper, had a cuddle on the bed and was ready to give me a little bite as normal.

Tomorrow is the one day off we have of the week. On Friday and Saturday we have a shorter day because the kids take the full SAT in the morning, supervised by the TAs. We come in to teach from 12:30-3:30.

Many of my neighbors are without power. It looks like a lot of trees fell on cars and homes. The top of a tree landed in the tiny backyard. I texted my landlords to let them know. So far I can’t see any damage to the house but I haven’t given it a full tour yet. My own apartment, one of five in an old Victorian, seems okay.

Once again, I feel like I am so lucky. If I hadn’t been working my car might have been destroyed. The 2004 Subaru is way too old to have comprehensive care on her insurance, so if a tree fell on her, I’d have no car. And I have six more weeks that I must drive to work and back six days a week. I don’t have the money to buy another car. Life is always a little scary, but today, I was again lucky.

I’m a little shaken up from the drive and from being scared about Loviefluffy. But she’s fine, I’m fine, we are all fine. I have a day off now, though plenty of things to do.

I think I will watch another Korean romantic comedy. Something light. I’m exhausted from the week - the teaching is intense and the drive an hour each way is really hard. It’s not easy driving, very urban with lots of traffic and crazy people double parking and ignoring traffic laws, so it’s not my favorite. But getting to the best kids in the world and being a part of their educational journey is all worth it.

Thank you God for bringing me safely home. Thank you all for being part of my life.

About seven weeks out of the year I get to teach SAT prep. The kids, at least the vast majority of them, are highly motivated, from families where respect for education and teachers is foundational, and they are so sweet! They aren’t the humorless, stressed out critters that jealous people make them out to be. They are fun, playful, loyal, and just plain GOOD KIDS.

I bring my absolute best everyday and these kids are the biggest reward a teacher could ask for. You’d think they’re my grandchildren, the way I go on about them! But really, they are the best kids ever.

They are fun to teach because they respond to challenge, something out of the ordinary, with curiosity.

I teach a passage on the SAT about Adam Smith’s idea of the invisible hand. You may associate the term with Smith, but surprisingly, he only mentioned it once in his writings. It was kind of a throw away line, a short stab at mercantilism, the dominant economic paradigm of the time.

(I could spend a class teaching “paradigm.” My mom could spend a year. We are word people. The kids love that my mommy was a librarian. That explains why these words are fun for me.)

Twentieth century economists were eager to show that individuals pursuing their own self-interest would create aggregate (as a group, putting together) benefits for society. They picked out this fairly unimportant concept from Adam Smith and elevated its importance in an effort to secure their own intellectual pedigree.

This is Chloe. She looks exactly like Sunny, our golden on the farm. I know her Mommy and Daddy now, and she comes running when she hears me. She flops over for belly rubs immediately and runs in the heat to greet me even though she is twelve now. She prefers the snow though. What is her pedigree? Pure golden retriever.

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I’ve taught this question for two years now, and I teach the concept of “intellectual pedigree” by asking, “Who has a dog?”

The first year I taught it, the most vivacious young lady in my last class of the day shot up her hand. “I have a dog Ms. Smith!”

I loved this kid. She wasn’t always the fastest with the answer, but she worked incredibly hard and had a personality that lit up the room.

“What kind of dog?”

“A sheepadoodle!”

Needless to say, it became a class about a sheepadoodle.

This year, I taught it the same way. This year I am teaching six, not three, classes, working six, not three days a week. Two cohorts: Monday, Wednesday, Friday and Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday.

First class: one of the young ladies helped me illustrate the point because she has a goldendoodle.

Second class: a young lady has an Aussiedoodle! That’s an Australian Sheppard and a Poodle!

Look at those paws!

Next class: another goldendoodle.

At this point, it’s seeming to be an association that is not spurious (are you getting how many SAT words I’m teaching you unsuspecting readers?)

Middle class of the day: one girl has a Burmese Mountain Dog. Another has… wait for it…

A Burmadoodle.

Most of my students do not have pets. Most of my students are of Indian descent, and it seems to not be such a thing to have pets. Many of them want cats when they grow up. But those who do have dogs have some version of doodle, and when we connect that concept to the phrase “intellectual pedigree,” it is etched into their minds forever.

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I wasn’t that into economics in college, even though all the hot guys were. I was a history major focusing on religion, binge reading Augustine for reasons I only now recall. But these days I love the economics passages. I think differently now, three decades after I graduated from Yale. Little things that I let pass by have importance now.

Did Adam Smith have a goldendoodle? I don’t know. This was all I could find:

I assure my students that I am no relation that I know of to Adam Smith. They laugh because their chronological and historical understanding shows them that it is very unlikely that I would be, so it’s funny. If they knew I was Scottish though…

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Today one of the TA’s - all kids who are alumni of the program and did really well on the SAT - came in to give one of my classes a pep talk. There is a way that people of the same generation can talk to each other that others simply can’t. It was marvelous to listen to through the wall.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do with the next part of my life. I want a secure job with benefits, of course, and I want to be able to contribute to the success of kids like these kids. I could do this by being a lobbyist for school choice and charter schools nine months a year and teaching SAT in summer (IDEAL WORLD!)

Finally I understand what side I am on: the side of American values, which happen to be embodied in the immigrants whom the Left doesn’t love, the people with brown skin who outwork white people and are incredibly successful.

The Left seems to hate those who are successful, especially if they have overcome obstacles. If you don’t continue to fail, continue to need a handout from the government… well, you must have cheated. And your vote can’t be bought with government programs or the promise of a higher minimum wage.

I tell my students that I want them to become leaders of this country, and I stand by that. They inspire me every day by bringing their A game, all the intellectual power they have plus their happy faces, to camp, when many of their friends are just having summer fun. These are the people who live American values.

Too many white Americans have forgotten our values. Remember when being smart, doing your work, showing up on time, and being polite and respectful got you good grades, status and a good job? When it wasn’t about claiming victim status or being the most oppressed?

Those times are coming back, and I’m happy to play a part in ushering them in.

Sunny would be proud.

In the time following October 7, my friends’ kids in college and high school, including our alma mater Yale, faced harassment, discrimination, and all sorts of absurd behaviors that made it impossible for them to enjoy and learn from the college experience they deserve, worked hard for, and their parents (plus their own work and loans) paid for!

Jill is here to help!

Check out her new website, still in progress.

Postsecondarypaths.com! I love it!

Friends: please reach out to Jill if your children are looking at college now, and please share with our huge network. This is what it means to be a worldwide family… we have resources to help each other!

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Meanwhile, I’m teaching SAT prep, and I love it. It’s a long day with an hour drive each way and seven hours of teaching with a half hour break, but the kids are amazing. I did it last year and I counted the days until I got to work with these kids and the awesome owner of the company and staff. I stand behind these young people all the way. Their work ethic, determination, and positive outlook on life are something our country would do well to imitate and learn from.

Off to my cat shelter shift… busy times these days, but much to write about!

The piece talks about Jews who denounce Israel, make art about how pro-Palestine they are, and all but completely disown their Jewish identity. The author cites the example of Natalie Portman. I had no idea that Natalie Portman was born in Jerusalem or was Jewish. I just thought of her as Padme, and since I have spend years contemplating how I turned into Anakin, I think she’s beautiful but wrong, naive and misguided… like today’s Democrats.

In the comments to the piece, a reader writes about “Shoot me last” Jews, those who try to assimilate and conform and denounce their Jewish identity and support those who kill Jews, all with the hopes that they will be accepted. There is a long, long history of this.

This phenomenon is not confined to Jews by any stretch of the imagination. Many people of all religions and ethnic groups go along enthusiastically with regimes in hopes that by flying under the radar, parroting the slogans, and behaving in public the way they think they are supposed to, they may be spared.

They hope that when the day of reckoning comes, when nothing but the identity that they can not erase is seen by those who would kill them, somehow their politics, their anti-Israel pronouncements or pro-Pali films, will save them. Even their conversions to Christianity haven’t historically saved them. I wonder if their conversions to Islam will. I doubt it.

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When I read, “Shoot me last,” I had a visceral reaction. It brought me back to October 7 and those days right after, when my mind was racing with anger and fear and I had nightmares every night.

It was not abstract. The violence against Jews was personal. It was about my friends, the people who have been closest to me in hard times and good times. It was about my high school best friend, who survived some crazy things with me and knows that I throw up all the time when I’m nervous or happy so it’s no big deal. It was about my college roommate, whom I never guessed would become a mother of three beautiful Jewish young ladies, in New York. It was about Ezra far away but having nightmares too and trying to explain what was going on to his child who never should have had to hear this. JD up in Boston who could have chosen not to be Jewish but converted and lives faithfully, along with his amazing wife who was one of my best college friends. So many of the people closest to me throughout my whole life have been Jewish… I had to do something.

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I had no idea I would meet all of you. Ari in Jerusalem wasn’t even in my imagination. I had no way of knowing what would come. But I had the same feeling that I had when I first read about Nazi Germany.

If you’re going to come for my Jewish friends, you will have to get through me first.

Like a lot of people who make great generals and terrible presidents, I was born a fighter. I know I’m not a diplomat. I make the quick decision in the heat of battle. I lead people through passion and on my off time enjoy flirting with the boys who live by reason. I love reason, but it doesn’t move most people. Wars are won because people will put their lives on the line for what they love: family, community, country, God. They follow those who can make crystal clear what they are fighting for and what is at stake. What we all have to lose.

Later on I figured out that I was defending Western civilization, everything we love about our Constitution, our freedom, including the freedom of the pro-Pali gay and trans yoga teachers to hate Israel. That’s part of the freedom we fight for.

But at the beginning it was just about my friends. I knew that many of them had way more to lose than I did. Suddenly my position of a freelancer barely making it economically gave me something that my high status, well off friends didn’t have: freedom to write.

I couldn’t very well say, “Fire me first!” when there was no employer to fire me!

Over the years, I have wondered if I have as much courage as I want to have. I am afraid for my economic security. I worry about my mom and my cat. Like all of you, I have to put a roof over my head. Like many of you, I have to put food in the cat’s bowl.

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I used to worry that the more violent anti-Israel factions in my neighborhood would figure out who I am but I fly under their radar and they don’t bother me. If you are a white person who has lived much of their life in poor black neighborhoods, you know how to detect when someone will become violent and how to be sufficiently meek and respectful in public that no one bothers you - usually.

Quickly things moved beyond my circle of friends. I became way more pro-Israel than most of my Jewish American friends. I criticized the Democrats early on for their failure to back Israel completely. Some of my friends don’t talk to me anymore. That makes me sad, but I stuck with my real friends.

Then there are the things that once you have seen, you can’t unsee.

Americans who stand up for everything that is good about our country: freedom to pursue our chosen vocation, to worship as we choose, to not just parrot words we don’t believe. Fighting back in ways that matter against the woke orthodoxy that deprived so many of their ways to make a living and ruined their lives. People who believe that we are individuals, to be judged on our character and our actions, not fixed with a label based on our skin color.

Supporting Israel is about more than supporting the Jewish people, though that I will continue to do as long as God sees fit to keep me on this earth. Supporting Israel is standing up for our way of life. Rights for women, rights to love and marry whom we choose, rights to dress as we choose (even for those whose fashion choices are horrifying!) It is not Christians who want to take away freedom. It’s the Socialist-Jihadist Left.

I know what I fight for. I know who I am. I’m not afraid of those who try to make us say things we don’t believe. As much as Scott Weiner helped create the mob that now attacks him, I’m glad he would not say the things they tried to make him say.

I get so much hope, faith and courage from my friends. It is worth everything to stand with you. Every time I feel like I’m losing hope or just don’t have it in me to keep fighting, one of you shows up to light the way. I’m with you, m'ayyeyaan.

An actual friend from college from whom I hadn’t heard in years posted on my page, “Antisemites shouldn’t be posting Jewish jokes.”

I had forwarded a joke that a Jewish friend of mine posted about an antisemite and a Jewish restaurant owner. Maybe it wasn’t all that funny but it certainly didn’t seem antisemitic, and the friend wasn’t saying it was.

Then he pointed to a post I had shared about Philadephia DA Larry Krasner now being under review by the state Attorney General in some of his cases. Here’s an article about that: https://penncapital-star.com/criminal-justice/pa-supreme-court-ruling-curbs-philly-district-attorney-adds-state-attorney-general-oversight/.

It’s not exactly a secret that while I used to support Krasner and even co-hosted a fundraiser for his first campaign, I now oppose him. The city isn’t safe, he prefers criminals to victims and the public safety, and he’s brought in a whole lot of people who are incompetent. So I take a position on a local issue that has nothing obvious to do with Jewish people as a whole or Israel.

The problem, it seems, the smoking gun that convinced this friend that I am an antisemite, was that the post said, “Soros-backed DA Larry Krasner.” From this, the college friend concluded that I am an antisemite.

To be honest, I didn’t know that George Soros is Jewish. Apparently it’s well known, and apparently he is not a supporter of Israel. I had no idea on either front. I always thought Soros sounded like a Greek name, to the extent I thought of it at all which is basically never. Are we now all responsible of knowing the religion or ethnicity or however you define it of people who give a lot of money to progressive causes and politicians?

Perhaps I should have searched up (as the kids like to say) a different article on Krasner’s circumstances, as I later did. But really… posting “Soros-backed” makes one an antisemite? How about posting “Sanders-backed” and calling that antisemitic because Bernie Sanders is Jewish? Quite confusing.

I took the opportunity to post all of my pro-Israel and against antisemitism articles from Splice Today on Facebook, which I hadn’t done in awhile, as well as a few entries from the blog. For the most part I post flower pictures and cat paintings, but when picked on for something I’m obviously not, I’m going to defend myself.

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It was lovely that a few Jewish friends posted that however they may disagree with various things I post, they can vouch that I am no antisemite. Here is my favorite:

“While I firmly disagree with most of what April has been posting as of late, as a Jew who has known her for almost 40 years, I can also firmly vouch that she is NOT an anti-Semite, and, in fact, she is more pro-Jewish than many Jews I know.”

Over the almost three years since I started speaking out in support of Israel and against antisemitism, I’ve had occasion to wonder why it is that I am more pro-Jewish and way more pro-Israel than any number of Jews you might know.

I’ve observed that many Jews, especially liberal Reform Jews, seem to feel a certain amount of guilt about the Palestinians they may have encountered on trips to Israel or otherwise found out about. Liberal Reform Jews tend to be extremely nice people who want to help everyone, especially those who are somehow disadvantaged. My former principal (You are my principal, now and always, she says, paraphrasing Jon Snow…) was such a person. He traced his choice of career to his Jewish values, which is wonderful and admirable. I got no problem with that. But to the extent that caring about Palestinians blinds one to the reality that their stated mission and intent is to kill Jews, that strikes me as a problem.

I have no interest in telling anyone how to be Jewish. I certainly don’t know and I respect however it is that people practice their religion or connect with their heritage.

What I do know a bit about is how to survive, and making oneself vulnerable to people who are quite open in their murderous intent is a bad idea, no matter who those people are.

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The more significant thing I’ve observed is that many non-Jewish Americans see standing with Israel as a logical part of standing up for our civilization and way of life. We have one set of values that includes a great deal of individual freedom, freedom for women, rights for LGBT+, and so on. The Muslim Arab world has a different set of values that are easy to see and about which they make no secret. We don’t want to have to veil, convert to Islam, give up our dogs, or any number of other things. I don’t mean to make light of it, but it’s just so obvious that I wonder why so many of the smart people I know seem confused. While we may want to live in peace with all people, quite a few people do not want to live in peace with us.

It took the horror of October 7 to wake me and a lot of others up to just how bad things have gotten. While progressives ran into the streets celebrating the horror and calling rape resistance, the Republican Party of Philadelphia made an unequivocal statement immediately condemning Hamas’ actions and pledging to keep Jews and Israelis in Philadelphia safe. I remember thinking… “Wait, I always thought the Republicans were the bad guys…” while my party blamed Israel before the blood of the massacred was dry.

Perhaps more are waking up now that the report on Pakistani rape gangs in the UK is out. Maybe more people will realize that even if you hate Netanyahu, he had a point when he said that this is not a clash between civilizations, it is a clash between civilization and barbarism. Between those who glorify death and those who sanctify life.

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During the time immediately following October 7, I hopped on the phone as fast as I could to check on all my Jewish friends. Guess what? They were not okay! All different varieties of not okay, but one thing I did hear repeatedly was that their non-Jewish friends had not called.

I decided to use the best tool I have, which is my writing, to try to come to my friends’ defense. In the beginning it really was mostly about just a few people who are important to me. Friends from college, high school, my professional life.

It wasn’t until November of 2023 that I even met an Israeli. I had always been a supporter of Israel, my dad taught me that, but I had no personal ties other than a strong idea that Israeli men are the hottest guys on earth (a view I stand by to this day.)

So it seems to me that my old friend who accused me of being an antisemite was barking up the wrong tree. He’s since disappeared so maybe he concluded the same.

I could be called a lot of things… I’m often reminded of the dialogue in Evita between Eva Peron and Mussolini:

Eva: Did you hear that? They called me a whore! They actually called me a whore!

Mussolini: Signora Peron, it’s an easy mistake. I’m still called an Admiral, yet I gave up the sea long ago!

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I’ve been attacked enough in my life for being seen with this or that guy or wearing something the wacko feminists thought was too friendly to men that I’d say, okay, I can see why you’d say that. It is nice to have reached an age where no one accuses me of sleeping with my boss (which a young co-worker on a job I had a couple of years ago pointed out would be great cover if I were sleeping with my boss. Which for the record I wasn’t. Really, I wasn’t. He was a Millenial and we all know Millenials don’t do things like that!)

But antisemite? No. Accused of sexualizing Jewish men on the basis of their ethnicity? Yes. To which I say, “Precisely which one filed a complaint?”

Disagree with me as many should and do, find a better name to call than antisemite.

But for those who were looking for an antisemite…

I am very afraid for my friends in New York. Things are obviously out of control. Mamdani and his socialists are winning more and more. I’m so happy that some of my friends are becoming more politically active to do something about this. I did the same, if in different ways. But you should not have to defend your right to safely live, worship and wear a Star of David in your own hometown. Most of my friends in New York have lived there most of if not all their lives. It’s their home. They aren’t running to Florida nor should they have to (though Florida seems very nice and if anyone offers me a chance to live in a nice retirement community with a golf course I’d probably take it. Not because I play golf but because I tend to like people who do. They are quiet. Golf if quiet. I like golf.)

I was recently at 30th Street Station, the train station where you catch Amtrak to New York and DC and Boston among other places from Philly. I hadn’t been there in years, then suddenly I was there twice in one week! I thought to myself, “I can imagine visiting New York or DC again.” It’s been a long time since I’ve ventured far from home. I would love to see the museums again and hang out with some New York friends. But New York does not seem like a safe place. As someone who does not dress as an Orthodox Jew or look stereotypically Jewish (maybe because I’m not), you might say I have no reason to be afraid. But I am afraid of a place where my Jewish friends have reason to be afraid.

Still not an antisemite.

I’m going to write my civilized friends in my Philly neighborhood and ask them if they know of any nice events that are happening July fourth weekend. I’m a bit scared to go to any of the big things downtown because of the possibility of terrorism, old fashioned crime, or just mayhem. So I’m fishing for an invitation to what I hope will be a dinner party of local nice people. I can bring deviled eggs! They’re Catholics… Catholics like deviled eggs too, right?

Still searching for a church home… thinking I might try out some churches that a friend suggested I might find comfortable. That may wait until after six day a week SAT prep is over though. I may be too tired to move much on my one day off!

Looking for a church home where one does not feel out of place praying for our Jewish brothers and sisters, in Israel, at home, and all over the world.

Still not an antisemite…

It’s about time to get my nails done again, and I’m thinking of a conservative pale pink because it goes with everything and where I teach in the summer an unobtrusive manicure is a better call than my school year glitter, but I’d have to say, I loved going bright red for the first time in years.

Red nails, red light saber, and faithful to the blue Israeli flag and the American flag, the country where I am proud to be a citizen and an active participant in our democracy.

Still not an antisemite.

“April, I am your father,” came the ghostly voice from the brie display.

Actually, that didn’t happen, but it may as well have. Wegman’s was my father’s favorite place in the last several years of his life, and the one I go to near my mom’s house is laid out just like the one in Chapel Hill, North Carolina where he lived. We used to go together and I’d run around and pick up all the items on the list because I knew where they were.

Dad described his retirement job as cooking for my step-mother. He loved to cook, and buying fresh ingredients, reading recipes, and creating delicious and beautiful meals for my step-mother was his great joy. He loved to grill, and took some risks doing so once he had to use an oxygen tank full time. I’m really glad he didn’t blow himself up!

Mom and I went to the Olive Garden for lunch in the same shopping center as the Wegman’s. It’s a step up from Wendy’s! We love the Olive Garden. I feel bad for the people who sneer at it. It’s such an accessible place, with reasonable prices for good, fresh food. You go there and white, black and other people are all eating their meals with their families in peace. No one is screaming or cursing or beating each other up. Of course it’s not South Philly real Italian food - it’s not supposed to be. It has a parking lot! It’s near big box stores! The servers are always so nice. Ours was a young mother of two. We chat with them and get to know them and leave big tips in cash. The servers work hard. Since we don’t order alcohol, we really don’t spend much money at all.

Today we tried the new light menu. It has traditional dishes in about half portions. I had chicken parmigiana and mom had eggplant.

Apparently these were added as a response to customers who no longer want to eat the giant portions they serve on the regular menu. I love it! With a salad it was more than enough for me.

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We get there as soon as it opens when it isn’t crowded and take our time.

I guess that gratitude is a major theme these days. I listen to people around me complain all the time about “the state of things.” I don’t see the point in making oneself miserable all the time. My life is far from easy, but you know what I’ve noticed? It actually gets much harder when I complain about it and focus on the negative. Doing something about a situation is way better than complaining about it. If it is possible to leave a dangerous job or a bad relationship, one should. If it is possible to become politically active around an issue that troubles one, one should become active. Posting on Facebook does not help.

Speaking of, I think one of my formerly close friends unfriended me on Facebook. I note that he hasn’t responded to my email saying that Georgia passed away. He knew and loved Georgia. I wonder why we are no longer “friends.” I fear it may be perceived political differences, which is a pretty pathetic reason to end a friendship, especially if you don’t tell the other person. Oh well. Maybe I’ll write him a follow up email. I don’t really want to just let it go unless he tells me he’s mad about… something. We live states away from each other, but had dinner together last fall when he was in town on business. I almost never sever connections, and I’m upset when I lose someone who has been important to me. Or really anyone. I’d be crushed if I found out that the early morning grocery store cashier at the Conshohocken Giant grocery store passed away. I loved her… every week we’d chat about her grandchildren. When I came back after years away, we picked right up… much to the perplexitude of my friend, who said, “I’ll just wait in the car.”

I’m grateful that my car was fixed and I was able to drive to meet my mom. Grateful that my mom is still with us and able to get out and drive. Sad that Georgia has gone, but I know she is in heaven waiting for us. Grateful for the Olive Garden meal and nice atmosphere and sweet server. Grateful for Wegman’s and how Dad would use my visits as an excuse to buy the expensive Professor’s Brie. Like killing the fatted calf!

Grateful that I made it home safely and got to take I-76 the whole way home and listen to podcasts to catch up on Gadi and Mike and my favorite Constitutional law experts. Grateful for a very nice afternoon tea with my Zen teacher, whom I hadn’t seen in a while.

I’m hoping to find a church home, one where I can worship, build community, serve those in need, maybe even teach middle school Sunday school! I’d like to find one where we don’t talk about politics, where I don’t know how people voted because it’s not what we are there for. It’s so nice to be around people who can have a discussion that does not draw lines in the sand.

When I went to the opening dinner for SAT prep teachers at the company owner’s beautiful home, we didn’t talk politics at all. We talked about the students, the SAT, people’s kids, people’s cats, our other jobs (most of us are teachers or retired teachers), the LSAT, dogs (The head reading teacher has a giant dog! He brought his charming girlfriend who told us all about the antics of their 77 pounds of love and mischief!) We enjoyed amazing homemade Korean food and the breathtaking view from her glassed in porch up in the trees. I have no idea how anyone votes and I don’t care.

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My friend the Socialist came for dinner on Saturday night. I’m his only in person friend and I try to make him a home-cooked meal every other week or so. This week I fried twelve sausage links from the farmer from Lancaster and made potatoes on the side. I ate one sausage, he ate the rest. He managed to consume a stick of butter with the meal, which is pretty typical.

Last time he was over, he went on a rant about how he thinks everyone who has ever traded stocks is a criminal. I asked if he really wants to live in a third world country. I never understand how people who literally live off other people’s tax dollars can want to kill or imprison those whose wealth makes their lives possible.

I got quite annoyed, and he did apologize for bringing it up. This week, we carefully stayed away from economics or politics. I had a good enough time. I need friends with whom I have more interesting conversations though. And who like more interesting food. Memories came up a few days ago of the dinner parties my college roommate and I used to have. We’d make bruschetta with fresh basil, salads with arugula, pizzas from this really great recipe I found with balsamic vinegar, and desserts. I remember one time when my roommate pulled me into the kitchen and said, “I don’t mean to alarm you, but I’m afraid you put basil in the salad.”

That wasn’t the worst problem we had. There was the time when two of my computer science friends came over. I got very into CS in the aftermath of the First David Fiasco. Of the two friends who came to dinner, one was a very big fellow. Unfortunately, our dining room chairs were not very sturdy. In the middle of a story of some kind, this young man found himself on the floor, as his chair had collapsed.

Lucky for me, I was on my way to the kitchen to get the next course, so I turned on the sink and laughed. My roommate was left out there to handle this disaster. She assured them that the chairs were old and destined to break at the slightest provocation. Somehow we all survived that night.

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We loved to cook and entertain. We used to have dessert parties with many cakes, pies and cookies, and a pot of coffee with some spirits on the side. We were not big drinkers at all in college. Our little place was packed and people would refuse to leave… we called it “The Vortex.”

I should have known that things would not work out with my ex because he doesn’t like to cook and entertain. It’s my favorite thing. I love to spend Saturday going to the farmers’ market to get fresh ingredients, preparing dishes, cleaning and serving a lovely meal to friends. I rarely get to do it as I have so few friends close by, but L and her husband come over sometimes. I hope they can come for July Fourth. Last year I made farmers’ market hot dogs and homemade fries.

Just a lot of random thoughts today. The sun is going down on this longest day of the year.

There is plenty of sad. I miss Georgia. I worry about Mom. I worry about money and what I’m going to do that is a secure job with benefits where I can do work that helps people and matches my values instead of forcing me to go against them. That’s a tall order these days.

SAT prep starts on Friday. I will be working six days a week and driving an hour each way, plus doing other work on the side. I’ll be tired but it’s so energizing to work with these most wonderful kids on earth. I never stopped thinking about my students from last year, what they were doing and where they would go in life. The future leaders of this country. I was telling a teacher friend today: some people are there to make money. Others are there to get the kids’ SAT scores higher. I’m there to make the leaders of the future. And I tell them that. Nothing less.

Want to get a room full of Indian-American fifteen year olds to say, “NO WAY!!” Tell them that one of them has to run for President of the United States.

It will be fun.

God is good, and wanting what you have is better than having what you want. There are so many things that we think we want, only to realize that we didn’t really. So many things we have that we don’t appreciate until they are gone. I won’t be like that. Every moment is a gift. Nothing is guaranteed.

Except death and taxes. So I must get to writing.

“It’s 8:20 am on a Tuesday. Do you know what your tax dollars are paying for?”

I support the parents of Lower Merion, who are trying to get an opt-out of Chromebook usage for their kids. Go parents! Let me know how I can help!

Don’t whine. Thank God, assess the situation, take action.

And give the Olive Garden another try. You may like it.

I hope you get some time to be with family, relax and do something fun.

The seminarian put out an email to all the community asking who would like to adopt a kitten. Jean, our landlady on the Christmas tree farm and dear friend, was in seminary at Lancaster at the time and wrote, "Yes, I’d love a kitten!” So she and my mom, who had moved in not too long before, went off to pick up Georgia Kitten.

Everyone fell in love with Georgia, especially Sunny the Golden Retriever, pictured above. Sunny took care of Georgia, chasing Tom cats away and making sure she was safe and loved. Miss Kitty, the previous farm cat and excellent mouser, taught Georgia how to climb trees so she could escape the farm fox, whom Jean named Alfred.

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When I lived on the farm, I got up at five and fed the cats before my mom woke up. I’d make Georgia’s Fancy Feast mixed with water, put it in the bowl on the kitchen table, and say, “Airlift to breakfast?” She always wanted to be picked up and placed on the table in front of her dish, even though she was an excellent jumper.

When we had to leave the beautiful farm in 2020 after Jean died suddenly, Mom took Georgia. Jean made it explicitly clear that the animals were to go to my mom. Sunny died at a ripe old age of almost 18 just after Jean did, while we were still on the farm. But Georgia came to Pottstown with Mom.

Mom got her a playmate right away. Elliott, a giant sweet orange tabby boy, came from the Pottstown SPCA. He was thin and scrawny but he bulked up. He and Georgia loved each other and played all the time. She liked to try to put his head in her mouth.

Today my mother texted me that Georgia was sick. Within a few hours it became clear that she had to go to the emergency vet. Mom’s friend in town came to get the cat and Mom to the vet and I jumped in the car and drove the hour thirteen minutes to meet them at the emergency vet.

By the time I got there they knew that she had a serious infection in her eyes and mouth and far gone cancer in her stomach. You could easily feel the lumps.

It was obvious that Georgia was ready to cross the Rainbow Bridge and go to the giant Christmas tree farm in the sky.

She let my mom and Jean put bunny ears on her one Easter.

Georgia loved to be outside on the farm. She came in and out all day while Mom obediently opened the door. I imagine that she is on the heavenly farm now, with Sunny and Jean.

Georgia’s life was not as long as we would have wanted it to be, but it was a beautiful life. She was always with the people and animals she loved. She never lacked for anything that she needed or wanted, including almost constant brushing from my mom. She was a talkative, playful, loving little girl who enjoyed her life.

Her death was sudden. I’m sure she had been getting sick for a while, but cats hide it until it gets bad. I am so grateful that I was able to be there with her and my mom at the end.

I was telling Mom last night that life feels fragile and precious to me. I have almost died before (due to a serious medical error) and I live in a place where real physical danger is always close by. I try to live my days fully, to relish life as it is. Today was sad, and hard. But I try to put myself back into the space of gratitude. Georgia had a happy life. She brought joy to my mom, me, our neighbors, Jean, and Elliott and Sunny and Miss Kitty and even Gabby cat, my mom’s cat who died shortly after she moved to the farm.

Here she was as a baby.

And as a supermodel in a basket.

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Georgia lived her fluffy life to the fullest, whether on the farm sniffing the daisies or chasing Elliott or meowing at Mom to be brushed at all hours of the day and night.

She passed peacefully today at about 6:30 pm. I got Mom settled back at her house and then headed home to Fluffy. Mom’s neighbors, who were so kind to us today and came to be with Mom and take her to the vet since I couldn’t get there right away, are burying Georgia in their backyard, next to one of their cats.

Sleep in heavenly trees, sweet little sister. We will meet again someday on the great Christmas tree farm in the sky.

Every night when I pet my kitty… last night we slept hand in paw!… I pray, “Thank you God for returning me to this pillow safely.”

It hasn’t always been a given that I would make it safely to the end of the day, so I’m grateful to be here.

A good friend asked me, “How often do you try to publish your blog?” There isn’t really an answer. I write when I feel like it, which is sometimes every day. I publish when I have something I want to chat about with all of you fine people!

Usually when I’m not writing, it’s because there’s something I’m thinking about, but for some reason I don’t feel like I can write about it. I don’t want to just put up drivel or comment on every headline of the day. So I’ll maintain a dignified silence if I am not yet ready to speak.

The news of the last few weeks has been a bit difficult for me. Here is my piece for Aeon Chronicle on the aftermath of the Karmelo Anthony case: Making Excuses for Black Violence Does Black Kids No Favors.

I imagine many of us read that horrible piece in which a professor from Howard University with a PhD claims that Austin Metcalf’s father failed to teach him that “black boys have boundaries.” I’m not going to dignify that piece by linking to it.

It brought up a lot for me. I am more familiar than I would like to be with the phenomenon of black men not liking to be told no. It is too personal and frankly too dangerous for me to write about it, so I won’t. But these things are very real for me in a way that perhaps they are not for quite a few of my white friends in the suburbs.

If it makes you feel any better, I’ve experienced violence at the hands of white professionals too!

But today I choose not to live in the trauma. For the most part, I no longer meet the diagnostic criteria for PTSD. That’s why it was shocking when symptoms reappeared - I’d been doing quite well for a long time. I no longer need or take medication. I do not see a therapist or psychiatrist - in part because I find them worse than useless but also because there’s just no need.

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It’s a funny story what really helped me close the book on past trauma, and it’s a big part of today’s gratitude meditation.

The short version is that I reconnected with an old friend, not even a close friend, who had not been in my life at all at the time of the worst traumatic event.

It so happened that I shared what had occurred and asked for some advice on routes to pursue justice.

Having received some good advice and more than anything, validation from a rational person whom I very much respect but who was not involved - really had no horse in the race - I just went about my life. Suddenly, the trauma lost its grip. After years.

There is a lot in the literature of PTSD about how being believed and validated stops trauma from turning into a chronic disorder. This is important. Just being involved in a traumatic event doesn’t doom you to developing symptoms. What happens afterward matters.

These days, I don’t talk about that stuff much. I’ll mention it fast but then I want to move on. It doesn’t define me anymore, and I find it tiresome. So when something brings it up, I want to move on as fast as I can. If I can’t do something productive about the situation, I don’ t want to think or talk about it.

The report on the rape gangs in Great Britain has brought up a lot too. I think it’s important that people read about it. I have been reading this: 250,000 Girls Raped for Being White and Not Obeying Allah. It goes into gruesome detail and I think we need to know.

This is about saving our civilization, my friends. Netanyahu is right: this is not a clash of civilizations. This is a fight between civilization and barbarism. I will not apologize for standing for freedom and civilization and I will not back down. I know many of you are very much with me.

We can not become like the UK. The US is the last stand. I support those who will keep this barbarism out of our country and prosecute crimes when they occur. Anyone who wants to screech, “Racism!” should know that screeching no longer silences white people. Those days just ended. Go read the summary of the report I linked. Come back when you’re done. Having brown skin is no longer a get out of responsibility for crime free card.

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So now I turn back to the gratitude.

As I read these things and reflect on my life, I am so grateful to be where I am. Safe in my own apartment, with my sweet kitty, doing work I love.

I could spend a lot of time wishing I had this or that, wondering what would have happened if I had made other choices. But why waste time, when I can live fully in the beauty of now?

“Sometimes the beauty of life hits like lightning washing everything clear,” sings Shawn Colvin in “Kill the Messenger” - one of the only artists I’ve ever seen in concert!

I am so blessed to have amazing friends. I doubt that there are many people who have had the depth and variety of friendships I have. Maybe that’s the flip side of never marrying or staying in one place too terribly long (though I was at the nurses’ union for ten years.) I’ve seen a lot.

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Last night I was reminded that one of my fellow teachers (I start SAT prep soon and we are in training, so we are reconnecting. SAT prep is my favorite teaching ever!!!) is a serious Catholic. She’s a Latin teacher who loves Latin Mass. We were talking on the phone last night when she said, “I have to remember to let the Holy Spirit guide my job search.”

I love talking with practicing, believing Jews or Christians. People with whom you can say, “I will keep you in my prayers” and it’s meaningful.

My new friends in the neighborhood are practicing Catholics. They’re just easy to be around. I don’t plan to become Catholic, but after SAT camp is over (I’ll be teaching six days a week and resting on the seventh for seven weeks!) I plan to look for a church where I can find a Christian home again. Probably going to look for an Episcopal church that isn’t wacko progressive. I’ve always loved the Episcopal church. Just enough ritual but not actually Catholic. I can take communion. The preaching was never that great but these days no preaching is so I’m not missing anything.

Consider the lilies. Lily season is short. I walk frequently. Like Aerosmith, I don’t want to miss a thing.

I’m not one of those people who says, “Everything happens for a reason.” Those people are annoying. Indeed, if I get hit by a car, it happened because the driver didn’t stop and hit me. That’s a reason, but not one that I find comforting.

I prefer, “Life as it is,” the motto of my school of Zen. Life as it is does not have to be glamorous all the time, or exciting. I’ve had my share of both, and I’d like some more… I miss dressing up and wearing suits and heels! But that day will come soon enough.

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For now, I choose gratitude. I’m grateful for the lilies, for my kitty cat who was so good at the vet this week! I’m grateful that my mom is with me at 81, and that my dad passed peacefully at 79. Grateful for my amazing friends, the old and the new. Grateful for how time wraps back on itself, making 2026 just as bright and vibrant and full of possibility as 1996, or even before.

Grateful for: read nails, Wegman’s, Clark Park, iced coffee, Substack, all my Substack worldwide family!, my friend AB in Florida and SL in NY, SAT Prep and all the wonderful kids whose lives I will be blessed to touch this summer. Grateful that I took the SAT in seventh grade, even grateful that my Dad told everyone who would listen what my score was! Grateful that I live in a time and place where girls can be smart and pretty, and can make choices about our lives. Grateful for air travel and trains and public transit and the Subaru dealership where they called my car a “she” and learned her name while they fixed her so that she is now safe to drive to my summer job and back. (Her name is Visenya.) Seriously, y’all, don’t misgender my 2004 Subaru!

Grateful that this sweet old girl gets me where I need to go safely and never complains! And she’s paid off!

Grateful for that Starbucks in Conshohocken where I studied for the GRE to get into my MPH program, more than fifteen years ago now. Grateful for Dr. Feinman who wrote my recommendations and is one of my longest serving, most steadfast friends.

Grateful for standardized tests, the Constitution, and the last few men in the world who still know how to dress properly.

Grateful for the next pair of heels I will buy, and the sneakers I was wearing when I took the lily pictures.

I really do love shoes, and I am not ashamed of that.

Grateful to have time for a short walk before I resume SAT prep training.

And grateful for all of you.

God be with you, now and always.

Happy Flag Day! Today we celebrate the adoption of the American flag by Congress in 1777.

When I was a kid, we used to say the Pledge of Allegiance to the flag every morning in school. There was no “if” about saying the Pledge. You did, or you got in trouble. There was a lot of controversy about “under God” back in those days, but we said the Pledge all right.

I have worked in dozens of public schools in Reading, PA and Philadelphia, and I have never once heard the Pledge of Allegiance said. I have only ever seen one American flag. Oddly enough, that was in the classroom where I taught 7th and 8th grade English last year - or tried to. I remember while the kids were taking the PSSA (our standardized test in PA) I would stare at the flag and think, “How has it come to this?” I knew that maybe one of my students would perform at grade level.

[Sweet kid, that one. He was the only one who brought a real breakfast to school. Every morning, he would show up, usually second after his buddy who was the son of the head of the cafeteria service. The smartest boy in the class, let’s call him Andrew because that’s not his name (though he had a very white sounding name for a black kid) would come to class, greet me with a very polite, “Good morning, Ms. Smith,” take his seat at the table with his three best friends (the sweetest boys who insisted on cleaning the classroom multiple times a day - it needed it!) and unwrap his foil covered breakfast sandwich. Whole wheat bread, turkey bacon, and egg and cheese, every morning. A proper breakfast for a growing boy. I asked if his parents made the sandwich and he said, no, they bought it every morning at the corner deli on their way to school. But those parents got Andrew a healthy breakfast. And he was the only kid who could read and write at grade level.]

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When I walked into the lobby of the giant (regular district, not charter) high school very close to my apartment sometime last year, I saw one overwhelming feature: a giant, I mean gargantuan, Pride of all sorts flag. You know, the one that looks like the Palestinian flag had a bad acid trip and dreamed of the Grateful Dead then threw up? That one.

I thought it was some version of the Palestinian flag until my friend who has had more exposure to the T+ side of the LGBT+++ community than she would like explained what it is.

The all-inclusive of everything except straight people flag was in the prominent place where you might think a school would display an American flag. But no, there is never an American flag seen on any of these properties. Not outside on a flagpole, not inside anywhere. You can’t find one. Unless there’s one hidden in the boys’ bathroom, there’s not a flag onsite.

Meanwhile, the Pride flags are everywhere. Each classroom at my old school had a sign with the Pride flag that read, “This is a welcoming classroom.” The halls had signs that said, “How to be an ally” and outlined several points that all should follow:

• Don’t associate with homophobic people.

• Don’t tell or laugh at homophobic jokes.

I can’t recall the other points but you get the idea.

I completely support people’s right to date, sleep with and marry whomever they want. I support people’s right to transition if they are adults who are sure that’s what they want to do. My actual closest of two friends in the world transitioned at 60. By then, you know. She is, btw, way more conservative than I am.

I have no problem with the Pride flag being displayed. But why is there no American flag? After all, being an American is what gives us the ability to express our sexuality and gender identity! Our country has come a very long way in this respect, progress that we should be proud of. The Muslim countries that Queers for Palestine revere would not be so kind to them.

There were also a lot of Pan-African and Black Power flags:

Okay. It’s an all black school, and while I question the wisdom of teaching black kids nothing but black literature and black history, I can be okay with Pan-African flags.

Still, we are all Americans. Not only that, we are Pennsylvanians. Where are the American flags and the Pennsylvania flags?

To walk around the schools, you’d think that we live in a mishmash of African countries that is entirely LGBT with some people who are asexual or questioning running about. You almost want to put a question mark in the middle of the flag, the whole thing is so confusing.

At this point, I’m ready to pledge allegiance to that guy.

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The kids I taught were rarely unsure about their genders. The boys performed masculinity and the girls performed femininity pretty consistently. Boys were quick to argue and as quick as they could be to violence, given that the school did a pretty good job of reigning that in. The girls had beautiful hair and nails, a topic that we could always enjoy discussing. A few of the kids were openly gay, a total of one I knew appeared to be presenting as a male though was born a female. No one questioned this student’s choice of pronouns, and I went along.

Being an “ally” had rewards. The very out “they” teacher, who called themselves “Teacher ___” instead of Mr. or Ms., held parties for so-called allies in their classroom. The parties involved food, so all the kids suddenly wanted to be allies on party days, even if they had not completed the required ally tasks in advance. Political movements run on food, so I get it.

Being an ally was socially acceptable, even required. Being a patriot - that would have been off-putting and discouraged.

I so wanted to ask Mr. M., “Where are the American flags?” I wonder what he would have said. There was so much I wanted to ask him. I never would have been able to, even if I’d worked there permanently. There were things you could not say. I knew that and everyone else knew that.

There were things you could not say that I have to say. As Solzhenitsyn and my boyfriend from 1993 are my witness, I can not live by lies.

It’s Flag Day and school is out, even the latest of the schools that stay open way past when any of the kids are paying attention. No one will pledge allegiance to anything but their phone, the snacks at the corner store, and maybe the game of basketball.

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I went to yoga today at the yoga studio in the neighborhood. I know the owner well, a very nice woman who now identifies as “they.” I’ve known them since they were a she and a yoga teacher, not yet the studio owner. I knew them when they were single, before they married a woman who is very nice, an acupuncture practitioner who makes her office (and goes by she) in the studio building, along with other bodywork and therapy practitioners. A thriving American business, the true American dream: making a living doing what they love, providing a service that no one has to have to survive, but that people are willing to pay good money for because they value it. They create jobs for the people who teach and work at the studio, and give space for others to practice their chosen profession and make money doing it. But being good a good leftist of this neighborhood so blue it looks like it’s on the verge of death by strangulation, they do not fly the American flag.

“It’s Flag Day, and my mother’s birthday,” I heard Kari, the owner, announce to a few people at the desk after class.

“Indeed it is,” I said. “Where are our American flags?”

“You know, I don’t even know…” Kari said, and turned their attention to someone else. Kari knows me well enough to know that I pay my bill, show up and am grateful for the yoga class, and will give her a bit of playful teasing outside of class. In this neighborhood, if you want to live, you have to learn to agree to disagree.

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I want my own American flag for my apartment window. It’s been a long time since I took down the Biden Harris signs from 2020 and the DA Larry Krasner sign from the same year. To be honest, I’ve been a little afraid to put an American flag up. I know that if I put an Israeli flag in my window I’d get a brick through it.

But it would make me happy to just put a little American flag in the kitchen window. I am an American, and proud to be one. With the possible exception of Israel, this is the greatest country on earth.

I painted my nails red for the first time in years this week, for a variety of reasons too complex and personal for a blog. The decision of nail color is one that women do not take lightly, and I take it more seriously than some, if not most.

“Don’t mess with what works,” said my buddy Mark Judge, always an advocate for red nails. He’s right, you know.

I wonder if my days of pink and purple glitter are over. I am no longer a public school teacher. I’m no longer purple.

I actually think the red looks good, even though I wondered if I should not wear it based on the old, “Redheads shouldn’t wear red,” rule. But when I look at my nails, they look classic and classy

The ring is my fortieth birthday ring. I wear it on my wedding ring finger because I wear my great grandmother’s wedding ring, a gift from my mother on my thirtieth birthday, on my right hand. Every once in awhile someone asks if it’s an engagement ring, but it’s not. My close friend gave it to me eleven years ago, and I never take it off. I think someone would have brought it to my attention if I were engaged. Rarely do such things escape me.

I don’t think I’m quite up for doing these for July 4th, but maybe I’ll change my mind

Or perhaps someday I’ll attend an election night victory party in a red dress. And I’m pretty sure which flag would be flying at that event.

1550 nurses and healthcare professionals (radiology techs, respiratory therapists, social workers, and many, many more) were out on Broad Street in front of Temple University Hospital, engaged in a 28 day landmark strike that would determine the course of healthcare labor relations in Philadelphia for the foreseeable future.

I had forgotten what the main issues were, but when I looked back at this article in Labor Notes, I remembered. Central to the fight was Temple’s attempt to impose a non-disparagement clause, or gag rule, on healthcare professionals for whom this rule would conflict with their professional ethics and obligations under the law.

Temple failed to impose its non-disparagement or “gag” clause, an idea incompatible with the legal obligation of health care workers to serve as advocates for their patients. The clause would have prevented union members and leaders from speaking publicly about patient safety issues rising from short-staffing. — Labor Notes, May 21, 2010

The strike was inspiring, monumental, and for those of us responsible for running it, exhausting. You really haven’t lived until you’ve had people coming to you telling you that they will lose their house within days if we don’t get a contract. I played less of a role in this one than I had in some previous ones - I was running a new organizing campaign at the time - but I was there, ordering pizzas and walking the picket line.

The weather was kind, and nurses etc. walked the street in front of the hospital in the warm spring sun. Dunkin Donuts had set up a free kiosk and gave out coffee to our members and to all of the police who had been stationed to watch over the strike. We trained our members very carefully to not be provoked to any sort of violence or confrontation. We knew that management would try to provoke us, as that’s how they could get an injunction to prevent us from picketing at all. Fortunately, we were dealing with some of the most self-disciplined people on earth: urban nurses who have to provide life saving care under the most difficult of conditions. These people know how to focus.

So, it seems, did the police. Civil Affairs was there - it’s their job to monitor protests of any kind. They were such nice men, always in suits, very professional. I loved coordinating with them. Then there were dozens of regular police officers, some of whom I noticed seemed to pick up a nurse girlfriend over the course of the strike. It’s a classic combination: nurses and cops. Two people who regularly put their lives on the line for people they don’t know.

Apparently, we were not the only ones to notice the police department’s single-minded focus on the strike. At some point mid-strike, on the day of a giant noon rally outside the hospital, some low tech robbers in masks robbed the PNC Bank branch just a half a block down the street from the hospital. And got away!

Why? Because no one was paying attention.

Eventually the thieves were apprehended, but it took quite a while. I’m sure PNC Bank was annoyed that there were no cops available in all of Philadelphia because they were all stationed at the hospital up the block, hitting on nurses and eating pizza that we happily shared with them. (I have a freaky gift for figuring out the exact number of pizzas and kinds of pizza that a large gathering needs to eat. Exactly so many veggie, barbeque chicken, pepperoni, cheese, buffalo chicken, etc. I nailed it every time. No one else can do this as well as I can. I should put it on my resume.)

The moral of the story is: do you job, and do it well. Focus intently when you need to. But never neglect the possibility that someone may be about to rob the bank up the street.

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One of the true marvels of Western Civilization is the ability of men to focus. I say men because men have an entirely different kind of focused attention than women do. Our brains are different, and to argue otherwise is to end up with a lot of unhappiness. Men at the top of Western Civilization developed the ability to focus intensely on something, be it building a bomb or negotiating a peace or any number of other important things, to the exclusion of all else. The thing that makes this a uniquely western achievement is that men can do it without compulsion, either from a king or an army or a god. Of their own free will, some of them can apply this level of concentration to a problem that will simply not be solved any other way.

Women focus too, but in a different way. Women are always scanning the horizon, and pick up on, estimating conservatively, 100 times more emotions than men do in any given ten second interval. By the time the gentlemen read that sentence, the ladies had had at least fifty complex thoughts and feelings about it. This is how we keep the tribe together, how we raise families, and how we keep our men from going batshit crazy. Women focus on the single most important thing any human being can ever do: giving birth to a child. But most of the time we have a million things in the background of our minds, from paying the bills to winning a strike to reminding our former partner (of twelve years ago) that it’s his sister’s birthday.

I could say more about that because it’s a topic I’ve thought about in depth, but I’ll save that for another day.

The habit of focus is good. I fear that phones and growing rates of ADHD are intertwined and destroying this thing that is essential to saving our civilization. While men in the US, Europe and Canada are messing with their phones, men who would kill or enslave and at very least convert us are paying quite a bit of attention. There will not come a point when we will all peaceably play video games together and join a group chat on whatever app the kids are using these days. We need people to focus on the essential task of discerning threats to our security and fighting them, un-distracted by virtue signaling, fear of cancellation, or concern about the proper oven temperature for roasting fish.

That salmon is probably raw and should probably be grilled, but see, you’ve already wasted a thought!

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In the process of achieving and maintaining focus on a larger goal, it’s important not to miss either the obvious or the unexpected.

The obvious: it’s lily season and they will be in bloom for only a short time before the heat dries them out and they’re gone until next year. Take a moment to look for the flowers if you live in a place where you have them.

This is a picture of real lilies, just a few houses down from me. I’m enjoying having a little free time to walk and take pictures at peak season for my favorite flower.

Then there’s the unexpected: someone may rob a bank down the street from your strike. Any number of things may happen that if you’re not paying attention, you could miss.

A few years ago, I started doing an Open to Possibilities meditation. I had always been a person with a plan, but as time went on, things got so far away from my original plan that I decided to just be open to what might happen. Save for retirement, have health insurance, but be open to possibilities.

In the morning when I meditate for the first time, and then again in the evening in times of high stress or volatility, I open my mind up to possibilities. Every time a narrative about what might happen starts, as it inevitably does, I recognize it, then let it go, with the mantra, “I am open to possibilities.”

I start to think about a potential job… and let it go before the idea gets too clear. I imagine a place to live… and let it go, before I get to attached.

It’s not indifference to the outcome. I’ve never managed that cold feat of bloodless calculation. I have a friend who can do it and I envy her, but true indifference to the outcome I have never achieved.

What I have achieved is a conscious recognition that I never know what will happen, even when I think I do, and a determination to trust in God, even when I am tempted to trust only in myself.

That way, when I say to myself like Han Solo did in The Force Awakens, “This not how I thought this day was going to go,” I’m always right. Nothing ever goes the way we think it’s going to go, even if we are having a “normal” day. Even less so when there is no normal day.

Once accomplished in the Open to Possibilities meditation, it is amazing what possibilities can open. Even that which appears impossible.

Which brings me to one of my favorite exchanges in the new three Star Wars. As they are getting out of the ship that Han and Chewie were on when they recaptured the Falcon, Han informs Rey that they’re leaving the hangar at light speed.

Rey: Is that even possible?

Han: I never ask that question until I’ve done it.

How is the beauty of real lilies even possible? These are one block from my apartment.

I remember asking what they meant and being told that it was something the Republicans said. It was bad. It seems like this was during one of those waves of media coverage of the “welfare queen” and the idea that people who didn’t work were getting money from the government. This was all very racist and anti-feminist too, I remember being told or believing, or both.

Being a divorced mother in the South during the Reagan years was very difficult, and being the child of a single mother was an experience you don’t forget. A large part of why I have moved to embrace more traditional values is that now I realize how much the experience of not having my father in my home affected me, but that’s a story for another day.

It makes sense that I was a Democrat growing up. Democrats were the party of equal pay for equal work for women. Republicans were the party that said that the only way for women to be good was to be a wife and stay at home mother. Back then, Republicans were the party of slut shaming and Democrats were the party of sexual liberation. Or so I thought.

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“It’s Your Money” signs were Republican, and that was bad, so that was enough of an answer for me at the time. My thoughts about taxes back then basically went, “The Republicans call us ‘tax and spend’ liberals, but it’s important that we spend money so that poor people can have food and not be homeless, and kids can get an education.” My analysis wasn’t as simple as that, but it was standard left-leaning, with the assumption that what the government does is good and the money the government raises to do what it does belongs to the government.

When I first began working, at age 14 as a student assistant in the library where my mom was the library director, taxes came straight out of my check. I didn’t think about them, they just disappeared. When I got my first salaried job as an organizer, taxes disappeared as such. Taxes were a part of reality I accepted without question: MY money was the money I made after taxes. The rest could be an offering to the Greek gods for all I really thought about it.

I got into a executive job at age 28 and found myself in the high tax brackets, but I still didn’t care about taxes. I was so happy to be making quite good money by my early thirties and so deep into my work as Director of Organizing for a nurses’ union that I didn’t give taxes a moment’s thought. I never even looked in detail at my check.

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My viewpoint changed when I started making money by the hour, by the day, and even by the minute. When you are on salary, things can feel a bit nebulous. A company or organization pays you regularly in exchange for a claim on a large part of your life. If you like the work and the organization, it can feel natural. If not, it can be like living in a cage. Either way, the exchange of money for time is not as clear as when you are paid directly for your time, and free to spend your non-work time as you choose.

One I got paid by the day as a substitute teacher, I started to see things in terms of how much of my time I was giving for them. In 2019 I bought my parents a bouquet of roses for their anniversary. It cost most of a day’s pay, and I was happy to be able to do it. When they almost didn’t get the flowers due to an unusual snowstorm in Chapel Hill, NC, I was on edge - not just because I wanted them to have their gift, but because that bouquet cost me almost a day’s worth of labor. Material wealth and time were no longer unrelated concepts.

Now when I look at my check from work, I see how much is going out in taxes. Federal, state and city. The Philadelphia city tax is 3.74% for residents, 3.43% for non-residents (they don’t get to pay extra to live on our dangerous and often trash-covered blocks.) There is also a tax on soda that combined with the cost of doing business in a neighborhood where there is frequent shoplifting and looting makes a Diet Pepsi two liter at my corner store $3.75. The City Council almost passed a $1 per ride tax on ride shares to close the gap in funding that the school district says it’s can’t close, but it hasn’t passed yet.

The taxes I pay are not abstractions to me. Out of my little income, some portion is going to do the things that state, federal and local government do. So I want to a) know what my taxes are going for b) have some say in how they are spent.

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I’m not sure why it’s a conservative position to simply want a say in where my tax money goes. If my tax money funds schools, I want to know what those schools are doing. If a police officer is rarely seen in my neighborhood, I want to know if the police are underfunded, or if they are simply not coming here. Whether one believes that we should all pay high taxes to fund a complete social welfare state with healthcare and free education and treats for our cats, or one believes that we should all keep as much of our money as possible, shouldn’t we all want a voice in how our taxes are spent? Isn’t that part of being a responsible citizen, or did I understand my Social Studies teachers incorrectly?

Yet in the airy-fairy world of those who would tax the mythical rich to pay for programs for the mythical deserving poor, asking where our tax dollars are going is an immediate sign that you are “One of them.”

“Yes…” I say in the voice of the Emperor in The Rise of Skywalker. “Long have I waited…”

I am getting involved in local politics, in large part because I want to know and have a say in where my money is going. In fact, last night I was elected Chairman of my ward. Easiest election I ever had… I walked in and the Ward Leader asked me if I would do it and I said yes! She knew I would say yes because I’ve already demonstrated that I step up and do what needs to be done. An organizer, no matter how many years out of the game, does not need to be asked twice or subtly. As I leave every meeting at my state committeeman’s house, I ask, “Is there anything else I can do?” Always been an action-oriented person.

I want to advocate for the things I think are good, like charter schools and more police and an end to the careless running of stop signs. I want to oppose things I don’t like, such as fare evaders on public transit and people using the streets as public toilets. It’s nice to spend time with other people who think these are rational positions to take, and who have worked hard in their own neighborhoods to make the city safer and more livable, for all of us.

While you can take a girl out of organizing, you can never take the organizer out of the girl. It’s been a while, but my skills are as sharp as ever. So if you could kindly pass me the light saber, let’s get on with it.

It seems like I must weigh in on the childless cat lady thing, but how much more can be said? The stereotype of the woman without children or a husband who loves her cats is so constant that I have cocktail napkins about it.

Putting women into categories based on their motherhood status and drawing a whole host of assumptions from them is a long running American pass-time, much like baseball or honking your horn at someone in front of you in traffic.

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So I will (sarcastically, in fun, I assure you, as some of my best friends are catless child ladies), raise some questions about this group of women.

Suspicious, isn’t it, that no one investigates why these women don’t have cats?

I volunteer at a cat shelter in a poor area of Philadelphia. Every Monday night I care for starving, sick kitties, almost all of whom were abandoned. They are usually friendly and were obviously someone’s cat, not feral. All they want is to be loved and held and fed and cuddled. These little beings didn’t choose to come into the world, and their mothers didn’t choose it either - if they are not spayed and are outside, female cats will become mothers.

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Cats are much, much less expensive than children. They are also much easier to care for on almost every level. A person with a modest income can keep a cat in conditions that are the equivalent of kitty paradise. Just a comfy place to sleep, decent food, and love is all they want. Sure, some have expensive tastes in catnip toys, but to be honest, I did that to myself by only buying my baby the finest (YEOWWWW!!! Brand).

If women are supposed to be so nurturing and loving and the caretakers of others, why are women who clearly have the resources, resources that they spend in ridiculous (to me, who is not a fan of treating kids like money grows on trees) amounts on children, not taking even one homeless, lonely, hungry kitty into their palatial homes?

Cats make great companions for children, and can teach them some important life lessons, like pull my tail and I’ll bite you. Catless child ladies are not only depriving needy cats of their love and resources, they are depriving their children of the opportunity to be raised properly by cats.

Humans need to learn to love and care for other beings. Cats are great for this because they are usually a little easier than dogs logistically, and unlike dogs, they demand respect. A cat, like an excellent elementary school teacher, will teach you respect.

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Are catless child ladies really so busy holding down jobs to provide for their children, attempting to take care of their man if they are fortunate enough that he stuck around to help care for the children he fathered, and basically hold their own sanity together that they don’t have time to clean a cat box? Make the kids do that!

Cats can provide a much needed source of love and relaxation for the stressed out, overworked catless child lady. My assumption is that all mothers work hard, whether that work is inside, outside, around, between, above, or in whatever relationship to the house. A cat could be an incredible emotional support to a woman who probably doesn’t get half the appreciation she deserves on the job and at home.

Cats are grateful and loving in a way that children often are not.

If you get them spayed, you do not have to worry about cat teen pregnancy.

We should, as a society, investigate the motivations of the catless child lady. Should catless child ladies run for political office? I mean if they can only take care of humans but not a simple housecat, how can they be entrusted with important issues involving nature, like climate change?

Not to mention foreign policy. I do not want people without cats attempting to negotiate any sort of peace. Having a cat teaches you how to compromise. (Okay baby sure it’s time for some more treats. I love you Mommy’s little boo boo baby fluff!)

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And don’t even get me started about catless child men. Men who love cats are just plain better than men who do not. On this hill I will stand and die. I will give some ground on any number of issues, being a person who does not see things in black and white (except tuxedo cats!) but on this, I am adamant. Men who love, care for, and revere their cats, especially those who proudly post pictures of them on social media, are really the only men fit to serve as world leaders. Those who love dogs may have a chance, but the real men love cats.

I’d love to say more, but this childless cat lady is about to go for her weekly volunteer shift at the cat rescue. If any catless child ladies out there have seen the error of their catless ways, I can help find you just the right cat or cats to solve all of your problems and make you the whole, fulfilled, truly a woman that God intended you to be.

Our other tradition is arguing about politics! While I greatly enjoy a conversation with anyone who will speak proper English, Ken is a real treat because he knows so much. He spent six years in Japan in the 1980’s, speaks fluent Japanese, and got his first Masters in East Asian Languages so he reads ancient Chinese in the original.

Ken describes himself as a Socialist. I most assuredly do not.

We argue and make fun of each other and I always learn something because he brings up a fact or theory that I didn’t know. Or maybe had forgotten.

A large percentage of you already know where this is going. The rest of you are probably worried about the rabbit, so I’ll assure you that it’s a character in a story, not a guest at the meal or the meal itself.

We repeated the argument that Socialists and the rest of us have all the time. Where are we going to get the money for all this free stuff? In a real Communist country, you know, you don’t get to sit around and write poetry all day. If other people don’t want to pay you to do what you want to do, you’re going to have to spend at least some time doing what you don’t want to do in order to survive. There’s no other way that a civilization can function.

AS: It’s like sitting in the middle of a farm, saying that the crops should grow, then waiting. Doesn’t seem like a good strategy.

KA: Or waiting for a rabbit to kill itself!

AS: What?

KA: The rabbit in Han Feizi’s story. A farmer sees a rabbit run into a tree stump, break its neck and die. The farmer cooks and eats the rabbit. Then he sits by the tree stump waiting for it to happen again, instead of working the fields.

AS: Aha! I vaguely remember this! But waiting for a rabbit to kill itself sounds like a terrible survival strategy! That’s not my career plan! (by this time we are laughing hysterically.)

Ken describes a bit about Chinese Legalism. Any of you are welcome to give an explanation… I read up on it a bit but it’s hard to know what’s a good source outside of your own field.

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The story of the farmer expecting a rabbit to kill itself on a regular basis, therefore quitting his work and sitting to wait, struck me because it gets to the heart of something I saw every day. Kids standing at the back of the classroom, making Tik Tok videos of dances and ignoring their actual school work.

“My dears, you know that Ms. Smith will enforce policy on making videos in class.”

And I did. I loved being a sub who enforced the rules in a place where I was supported. A Dean or other official comes and confiscates the phones.

“Now ladies, how is it you presume to making a living and provide for you own family if you’re making Tik Tok videos instead of doing your school work?”

“We’re going to be influencers!”

The kids start to yell out how many followers they have.

All over cities like this, all over the country, young people actually believe that they will become wealthy influencers by doing these dances on Tik Tok.

Sure, some people find this strategy successful. The rest either get a job, or live on government programs and the off the books economy.

This is not theory. I see it, they tell me.

“Ladies and gentlemen, do we remember when the EBT cards didn’t get refilled for awhile?”

“Oh yes miss…”

Often a vibrant discussion will ensue, but if I thought I was going to make a living as an economics professor because I got a few kids to stop making Tik Tok videos and think, I’d be… waiting for a rabbit to kill itself.

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“Do you know that taxpayers, like me and your teachers and grownups you know, are paying for your education right now?”

You’d be alarmed at how often I heard, “Miss, what’s a taxpayer?”

I briefly pray to the ghost of Mrs. Thatcher and give out some stickers while I explain where the money comes from that pays for the school, the Chromebooks, the teachers and staff, the lunches, the breakfasts, the heat and air conditioning.

I love getting kids to think. When you’re subbing, you are doing more keeping order than actual teaching. Those young people who do their work get stickers and lavish praise from me. But usually they run out of work or won’t do it, so I figure the taxpayers who pay me to do this may as well get their money’s worth and we should try to give the kids an education.

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Still, I ask myself, “What are we doing here?” No one member of the system can take it on and reverse it alone - and the people I’ve worked with are all trying, so hard, doing better than any other urban public school I’ve been to.

You probably know what I’m going to say:

We have to stop making excuses for it. We can not just wave the magic “systemic racism” wand and pretending that excuses anyone from working.

Decades of failed liberal policy has taught these children that a rabbit will routinely kill itself in order to provide their breakfast, lunch, snacks, housing, Chromebooks, and who knows what else. As the relatively well off people I know on Facebook blather on about taxing the rich out of existence to fund social programs, I wonder:

Do they really think that suicidal rabbits will continue to appear?

The rabbits are getting sick of this. They work for a living, and they won’t kill themselves so that others can make Tik Tok videos indefinitely. If public education is not about teaching these children to become grown ups who can get jobs, what are we doing here?

One of my favorite capitalists, J-Lo, starts her famous song, “Jenny from the Block” with the line, “Everyone’s got to make a living.”

It’s true, you know. Maybe that quote should grace the school walls.

The parents want access to little Sharif at all times. He must have his phone. They say this is for safety but how does his phone keep him safe? In the event of a school shooting, phones would make it less safe, not more.

Here is how it really works:

In the middle of his seventh grade class, while the teacher is attempting to teach an English lesson, Sharif jumps up and says, “My mom is calling me!” and runs out of the room.

“My mom is calling me,” is the universal excuse for why they have to have their phones. I wanted to scream, “Barack Obama is calling me but I’m gonna let him go to voicemail because I am at work!” But no. Mom above all.

Mom is not calling for safety. Nine times out of ten Mom is not calling for any reason that could not wait until after school. Maybe she’s mad that Sharif didn’t take out the trash. At best, it’s a change in who is picking up whom. All of these pieces of information could wait until after school. But no, Mom has to tell Sharif right now.

Sharif runs out of the room. All the kids are distracted. The teacher has to take two minutes to get their attention (such as it is) back.

Sharif comes back in. He looks downtrodden. Mom yelled at him. Now Sharif will not be able to concentrate on his lesson. A day of English class is lost for Sharif because Mom had to have access to him right then.

That’s the best case scenario. Here’s what is happening more often:

— a 12th grade girl is looking at a picture of a naked man on her phone

— half the class is playing a video game on their phone

— beautiful, sweet Jana in the tenth grade is distraught. I keep telling her to put her phone away. But she’s in a text war with someone about something, likely a boy. Finally, I call the Dean and he takes her phone. “But Ms. Smith, I’m going through something.” I get it, honey, but you’re in school.

— the kids are making TikTok videos of their dances because they think they will make a living as influencers

— a boy is bragging to his buddies about his girl. Another boy claims that the young lady is not his girl. One says he will call her. This is on school hours! I say, “Gentlemen, here we draw the line. You will not bother this young lady and distract her from her studies.” I call the Dean. She takes the phone.

— the boys prank call some store - from math class

— kids are in the bathroom making Tik Tok videos. For a long, long time when they should be in class.

— a seventh grader sees porn on an older kids’ phone

If you think these things only happen when a sub is in the room, think again. The regular teachers spend half their time fighting the phones too. “Put your phone away!”

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Adults can’t resist the draw of that Godforsaken object in their pocket. How can we expect children to?

This is insane. Your tax dollars and mine are paying for kids to be on cell phones! Or for their attention to be constantly drawn away. Is that what you thought you were funding when you decided public education was a good idea?

This could easily be solved. 24 states have bell to bell bans. The devil is in the details, of course. Jonathan Haidt (on whom I have a big crush having binge read his entire blog) describes the ways to test if cell phone bans are working.

At one school where I worked, halfway through the year the principal began a policy of taking the kids’ phones at the start of the day and returning them at the end. All of a sudden, I had the kids’ attention sometimes!!! I saw the difference. Kids who previously spent all their time trying to sneak their phone out of their pocket to continue the group chat could pay a tiny bit of attention to the stated purpose of education: learning.

For cell phone bans to work, the phone must not be in the child’s possession, at all. Not in pocket, not in locker. It must be left at home or stored away, such as in the main office, all day.

Could you keep your phone in your purse or pocket or briefcase all day if you were told to? No, and you’re an adult.

The children go through some angst when they first meet a ban, but soon you hear them laughing and talking on recess and at lunch instead of staring at their phones. And the teachers’ collective blood pressure goes from near stroke level to almost normal.

The schools cannot make this happen alone. The state must. The schools will not say to the parents, “No, you can not yell at poor little Sharif on school time and by the way he’s watching porn on lunch,” to the parents. But the state government can.

Governor Shapiro is firmly in favor of the ban. It’s working its way through the legislature.

There is no doubt that cell phone bans will improve the education of our students. But for me, it goes beyond that.

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What, really, is the point of public education?

Are schools places where young people of all backgrounds will learn the basics of literacy and math, science, history and civics, and hopefully art, music, and other subjects?

Or are they day cares for kids of all ages, where kids are entitled to do whatever they want on taxpayer money?

If it’s the later, I don’t want to fund it. Or fund it more cheaply by dropping the pretense and getting rid of the teachers. Just make it an all day gym and arcade if we’re not going to require that the students engage in learning.

We’ve gotten so used to the idea that public education is a right that it’s become more of an entitlement. Parents can send their kids somewhere all day, which at least gets the kids off the streets. But if we don’t require something of the students, it’s just a daycare.

Want kids to learn to read and write?

Get rid of the phones.

Let this dragon eat them all.